Wrapping up February.
I now have a 10 month old.
Her personality comes out more and more each day. She is running around the house and down the halls trying to take on stairs like an adult.
She loves her kitties.
She loves books and taking everything off a shelf.
She loves visiting her BFF. Their parallel play is so adorable.
She also loves her grandma.
I’m just so in love with her. My hope is to be able to foster her independence and growth through out her life. To help her to think and make her own decisions. To be globally and locally minded. I want her to love and live fearlessly.
It has been sunny here in Oregon. Cold but sunny. This burst of golden light has helped my mood. I always forget how much the dark and dreary weather affects me. All is not sunshine and roses in my life, but I feel like I can breathe. Anxiety and depression are hard to deal with. They lie to you; one about the future and the other about the past. Neither allows you to be in the present. Neither allows you to stop and smell the roses. Or giraffes as the case may be. Let’s take lessons from bebe and stop and smell the giraffe.
I’m coming around to this idea of deep cleaning in the new year. I love it. I’m not sure why it never occurred to me before. I mean I love fresh starts. I love having a clean organized house. It makes me feel calm and relaxed when things are put away and everything is clean. This battles with my anxiety and depression that keeps me laying curled up on the couch. I sometimes have a panic attack and need to clean before everything feels okay again. This all being said is a long way to say we cleaned our carpets today.
Now I want to rearrange my living room, but cannot for the life of me come up with a new way to make it safe with bebe. Mostly because of blocking off under the computer desk is tricky.
Though I will sleep on it tonight because we won’t put everything back until tomorrow.
Speaking of tomorrow we are going to clean the bedroom carpet and do a shit ton of laundry.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday weekend!
Life has taken an unexpected turn.
The first week of the new year brought me back to work part time. Bebe and I are still adjusting to this new normal. Me more so than her. She is just phenomenal.
I think this will be good for both of us and for Alex too. Good all around, but that doesn’t make it easy.
I made a dairy free chicken pot pie for dinner tonight.
Here is the recipe I used and modified. I left out the sour cream. Alex didn’t think it needed the Philo dough on the top, but you know me I love Philo. I just wish I figured out it was dairy free sooner. Now I can make baklava with my butter substitute. Looking forward to that.
Most years I have goals such as loose weight, save money, pay off debt. All good goals. All things I need to do this coming year, but this year is different. Different for so many reasons. The biggest being Bebe.
I want to think of resolutions in terms of setting a good example for bebe. What kind of person do I hope she will grow up to be? How do I foster independence, self reliance, and resilience? How do I model positive self care?
This year my resolutions are:
- Establish a daily routine; three table meals a day, reading books, going for walks, etc.
- Keep a clean and organized home
- Meal plan
- Make new friends
- Get my anxiety under control
- Remember to do my best every day
- Work on self care; taking time for myself, getting more sleep, doing things I enjoy, ect.
- Take more pictures with my camera instead of my phone!